I think more than ever in my life I’ve been faced with the reality that things aren’t always going to go as planned. For the most part I deal with it well, I roll with the punches and adjust as needed. But one aspect that caught me off guard was the “what if” thoughts. And it’s one of those situations that we’ve all had, during the day those thoughts are the bull in the china shop doing relatively well, tiptoeing around, keeping its composure.
But the moment you lay your head on your pillow at night that bull slips on a banana peel and every thought comes crashing down. “What if I did this? What if I didn’t do this? What if I had done it THIS way?” And I think to some degree going through those thoughts and analyzing them to learn from them can be a healthy and useful thing. But like really… we’re going to do this now?
So in my frustration, I’ve been trying to figure out why this happens and while on that trail I found this really interesting video on “How To Delete Your Memory”. Not exactly what I was looking for, but yea… I’d like to forget some things.
This video made me realize that I already received what I needed from those memories that I’ve been “What if”-ing about, and dwelling on them now does absolutely no good. That helped a lot with not having them as often. The irony is that he basically says that getting a good night’s rest is the best way to “delete your memory”.